Why do I hurt

If by chance I find love……………if by chance I lose love…………..if by chance I don’t want love…………..if by chance love doesn’t want me……………if by chance I lose interest in all………………..if by chance the world goes by……….if by chnace I am no longer here………if by chance I was never here anyway………….if by chance I lose everything………….if by chance no one will care…………then I was never here, I was never in love, I have never had love, I never want love again, no one can hear your heart break……….the decent of clouds that fog the brain are what is sent to be the start of the nothingness………….I’ll want for nothing again………nothing will want me………I will be nothing………..I will not want for anything………..with nothingness the void is never empty………..I will be floating, waiting until love finds me and if by chance I find love